Weirdness

Being back in America is weird. Since coming back I have been staying at my dad’s house in Saint Charles. I have been spending my days working out, studying Spanish, doing CPE, trying to find a job and trying to get reacclimated to life here. I am so used to having the same things in my pockets that changing that up feels weird and I don’t know which things to put where to make the most sense. I have been used to wearing a money belt under my pants and I check for it all the time and have mini panic attacks that someone has stolen it or I have lost it before I remember that I’m not wearing it anymore. The other day I wanted some water and I went to my room and retrieved my water bottle from my backpack and filled it up at the sink. I forgot that there is a cabinet full of cups that would work equally as well. I will get readjusted in time.

I have always been good at being alone but for the last six months I have never really been alone and I have gotten used to other people being around. Staying at my Dad’s house during this past week, while they have been at work and I have been home alone I have felt really lonely. I know that it is silly to feel that way and that I will soon grow back to enjoying my alone time as much as I have in the past.

In the next couple of days I am going to post some more information about my trip in total so stay tuned.